summertime sadness (i have seasonal depression but for the summer)

sorry for not writing one of these since may!

things have been feeling deeply off, to say the least.

every day there’s a 50% chance that when i look up from my screen to look at the wall or an object or a scene in front of me that it’s going to look uncanny, distant, fuzzy, detached from me. i get up and my blood pressure drops as my heart rate spikes and goes back down. the anxiety hits harder than…