being well-rounded is reading only the first chapter of every book

why could i read the perks of being a wallflower in a day as a teen but i can't read a sentence as an adult?

when my life began its drastic descent into chaos at age 12, i began to seek refuge in worlds built by authors. i was late to harry potter, so i read almost every harry potter book over the course of a two years so i could:

1. stop being told i am late to the game,

2. escape from the hell i was experiencing in life.

i was dealing with a lot of bad feeling…