a little hello + update + some of the fun stuff
why haven't i written a newsletter in so long? mental illness
hello to my faithful subscribers! it’s been a while. also, my subscriber count has more than doubled since my last newsletter. wild!
i’ll keep my explanation short: i’ve felt uninspired, sad, anxious. life is tumultuous and when there’s too much going on i can’t find anything to write about other than just complaining. and i don’t want this to just be another platform for me to simply complain, that’s what my twitter is for.
i’m working on research and planning for a higher quality substack post to come out within the next month, about internet aesthetics. if you want to help contribute to that, you can anonymously fill out this google form.
now if you’re wondering what i’ve been up to, what i’ve been thinking, what i’ve been consuming, here’s a summary:
my tiktok fyp is full of normie shit now and it’s kind of annoying so i don’t go on as much anymore
i get angry daily at the stuff i read on twitter but also i can’t stop it
i kind of did numbers on a tweet about public transit and car insurance costs
i’ve been watching it’s always sunny in philadelphia almost exclusively, i’m midway through season 4. though i did watch turning red and in the heights recently, both of which i loved.
i’ve been doing a lot of thinking about trauma i endured in past relationships and how that’s impacted my life today (a ton, oh my god, it’s way too much)
i can’t get a full night of sleep because my cat needs to do loud things all night and i can’t stop her
i’m going to bleach my hair this week as my package with lightener and a bowl in it is arriving very soon
i feel an overwhelming sense of restlessness at all times and think about death and nothingness more than i would like!
okay, now that you’re all caught up, on to the good stuff.
crush of the week
i have developed a crush on charlie day. can’t really explain it. just want him to scream at me.
track of the week
this song is so good. i love it. i have been singing it a lot. it’s super easy to play. try it out, especially if you have a friend to duet with.
the signs as coffee
aries - double espresso (straight to the point, classic but chaotic)
taurus - espresso con panna (indulgent!)
gemini - a shaft lol (fun, social, a bit of everything, insane)
cancer - oat milk lavender latte (soft and floral)
leo - cappuccino (everyone loves it, a classic, reliable)
virgo - americano (no bullshit, but not harsh)
libra - frappe (indecisive)
scorpio - cowboy coffee (hard as hell)
sagittarius - siphon (thinks they’re more interesting than they are)
capricorn - a nice dark roast pourover (grounded but also a little annoying)
aquarius - espresso macchiato (going against the grain, scoffs at people who think a macchiato is like the one at starbucks)
pisces - turkish coffee (will read the grounds and find out their future)